Time will tell?

I could not sleep last night so I went out close to mid-night. Nowhere to go at that hour and the only destination I could think of is the 'Batu' at the Jrudong Beach. When I arrived, there were a lot of cars and people alike. Groups of boys and girls, two couples, one man and myself.

Yes I was alone. I need time to be alone. I tuned in to my playlist and listen to my songs. I could still hear the gigglings and noises made by the earlier visitors there. They were really having a good time.

The weather was nice, not too windy and the waves were gentle. It was also almost full moon last night so it was really nice. I felt good I remember. Not thinking of anything specific, I thought of life in general as I watched the waves crashing in to the boulders.

Symbolically, I thought that that's what life is. Life is a destination. Like the wave rushing in to the shores. It depend on you on how you want to control your own speed. I think I live my life in the fast lane, I just wish its life in the fab lane just like Kimora from the E-channel on Astro. Wishes aside, I think I live my life too fast. Always in a hurry. Always wanting to finish things quickly, just like this posting. I should have slowed down. I know I can do that.

So I was still at the beach well after one in the morning. By then most people have left. Maybe its getting late, maybe its getting colder as I could feel the chill down to my spine. Luckily I was wearing my hooded-jacket with me, so I feel nice and warm. The single guy sitting not far from me have since lay down on the rock, staring at the starry sky. The sky was beautiful last night. I love it. I tried to take a picture with my handphone but the result was pitch dark. So I took a picture at a direction where there was some light coming from the other side of the beach, where the wet market is.

Honestly i didnt think of him last night. I wondered why. That place was supposed to bring so much memories between me and him but last night, I tried to recall. All I could remember was the first time we were there together. It was so romantic. You can imagine how a beach can bring about the romantic side of you. The mood was there.

Future visits to the place proved to be wrong and regretted. We always had constant fights. It could either be him falling asleep most of the time and I was talking to myself. Other times it could be because of trivial things. I really cant recall now.

After almost two, I thought I wanted to go home but I ended up sleeping in the car. I was awoken by the sound of loud music from a 4x4 and realised it was almost three. That was a good one hour sleep.

This morning, again my persistent friend that I mentioned in my post yesterday sent me his usual text. To meet up and have breakfast. He sent the text at 06:57 and wanted to meet at 7! I said I just woke up - thanks to his text or else I would be sleeping the whole morning which means no work! He kept on asking to meet up and I said I dont know about timing as it was already 07:30 and I just finished shower. So no meeting today either. I did suggest to meet up after work but he said he couldnt. I just shrugged.

Time will tell.