Monday blues and Tuesday delight

So its Tuesday already, well almost Wednesday infact; 15 minutes more to be exact. I wanted to write about Monday and Tuesday hence the title.

X kept on sending me text the whole of Sunday and Monday. He wanted us to be back. He even text me: 'baby come back' referring to that song in the Transformer movie. He knew I love the song and in one of our previous break-ups, I admitted sending him the same text because I couldn't bear to lose him at that time. He did come back and his reply was: 'Transformer'.

After his hundredth text on Sunday, he simply text: 'plssssss......' and that was like almost midnight. I waited until one but my eyes were heavy. The next morning, I expected to see his text after one but there was none. Relief, I started work and focussed with work when suddenly A sent me a text, asking how was my Sunday. I have missed him.

I quickly gave him a short call, just to hear his husky voice. I wasnt listening to what he said when suddenly I realised he said hello a couple of times. How embarassing. I apologised saying that I was scribbling something at work, which of course was not true. He laughed and said he didnt hear any scribble. Ouch!

I apologised and told him the truth. He paused for awhile and I could sense that he was smiling from his voice when he said: 'So I really do have this husky voice huh.' I could just melt like a chocolate. Next thing we both knew, we were on the phone for an hour. He apologised and said that he has a meeting in a few minutes and have to excuse himself. Of course I didnt want to buy that but deep inside I knew he always have his weekly meeting on a Monday morning as he told me that night when we met.

When I continued my work, I realised I have at least five messages. I didnt hear the alert as I set my phone to its silent mode. When I checked the messages, they were all from X. The first was asking why I didnt reply to any of his messages the day before; the second was asking if I was at work; third was why my phone was busy all the time (I was with A) and fourth and fifth were simply 'why'. After readng his texts, A was really getting on my nerve. I switched off my phone because I didnt want him to disturb me at work.

Realising it was lunchtime, a colleague asked if I wanted to join in. Last time my excuse was I was fasting which was true. I was actually not in a mood to eat but looking at my colleague's face, I said yes and grabbed my handbag and phone and went out with her to our popular lunch hangout cafe.

As we were making our way to the cafe, I suddenly saw X waiting for me by the roadside. Great! He must have known that I must eat sometime and he surely could read my mind on that. I wish he could read the other part of my mind on not wanting to see him ever again. My colleague looked confused as she knew about X and our on and off relationship. She asked if she should just head to the cafe alone and leave me with X but I said no. Then I felt guilty for doing that. I told her I didnt mean to use her as an excuse because I didnt expect X to be there. She understood so we headed to the cafe.

X realised we were not going to his direction and started to follow us. He called my name a couple of times and pleaded me to stop and look at him. I was really embarrased that I wish the earth would just swallow me or better, him. My colleague finally said that she's really okay as she saw a couple of familiar faces at the cafe. Oh....

X saw that my colleague has left me and grab my arm and pulled me away from the public view. There was a small corner which was a bit hidden from passers-by and X brought me to that area. I was really uncomfortable with the whole thing and started to draw my long face and fold my arms around.

X asked why I didnt reply to any his texts. I said which one as there must have been hundreds since Sunday untul Monday lunchtime. He was obviously upset with my attitude. He grabbed his head and started to run his fingers through his thick hair. I used to love that everytime he do that but not anymore. I realised he hasnt shaven, maybe since last week. He looked miserable.

He was pacing left and right like a soldier and front to back and sideways. He started to raise his voice and I warned him not to make a scene and to act like a gentleman. By then he hit the wall with his fist. I was shocked as he could hit my face. He quickly apologised to me saying he didnt mean to hit me but the wall. I sighed but my heart was still pounding.

I saw a two old chairs in the area and told X to sit and calm down. He did. All he wanted, he said, was for us to get back together. I told him that its impossible as I had enough of him. He promised he will change but I said its already too late. I could not understand why he still want me when he has girls around him 24/7. Maybe he realised that was what I was thinking.

He held my hand and assured me those girls didnt mean anything to him. They are b****** he said. Whoah! I hoped he didnt say the same about me when he talked to other girls about me. He said that he has deleted all of the girls' numbers and whats left in his handphone were just mine; his mom's and sisters' as well as his female cousins. The last part, the cousin thing I wasn't sure but hey, I really dont care as it doesnt matter to me anymore. He doesnt matter to me at all.

He cried just like a baby. I said its no use crying and asked him to move on. I do, I move on. The part which hurt most was when I had to accept the fact that he didnt really care about me. I have long forgave him and try to forget all those things that hurt me. Everything.

I realised my lunchbreak was over and excused myself. X was silent. I stood up and walked away from him. He then asked if I wanted to meet up after work, maybe for coffee. I said nope as I have made an appointment with my personal trainer at the gym. Suddenly he rose and demanded to know who this trainer is. I said it doesnt matter who and its none of his business anyway. I left.

At work, I couldnt concentrate on anything. X really has drained me emotionally and physically right from the start of our relationship. I wondered why I loved him all those years. Oh yes I remember, he was fun and charming and a ladies-man. He was a gentleman and because of this natural talent that he has, girls would easily fall for him and he surely didnt waste that. That really hurt me. I always turned a blind eye when he flirted with girls. I sometime felt I was worthless to him. Just who am I compared to those glam girls that he showed off to me.

After work I went straight to the gym but I cancelled my training. Instead I spent my time in the sauna room for almost two hours until I felt dehydrated. Those hours I tried to recall and see if I still have feelings for X. My head said there's nothing left in store and my heart, oh my poor heart said...maybe. Oh I am still confused, even now as I type.

I went home and hit the sack straight away without having anything to eat. By this morning, oh its already Wednesday morning now. I meant by Tuesday morning, I was so hungry I made myself a big breakfast. I rushed to work only to find my fuel was running low. Great!

At the fuel station I noticed there was a man sitting in his car in the next lane who kept looking at me. He smiled. I didnt recognise him as he was wearing a Ray Ban. I didnt smile back, he could be a pervert or some maniac. Oh I better watch my lingo.

I drove like crazy to work and by the time I got to my office I was already 15 minutes late. Luckily my boss has not arrived as he has an external meeting I remember. Saved! My morning was slow until I got a call from our Receptionist saying that there's someone asking to see the lady in the red sports car. Huh? That someone surely didnt know my name so I asked the Receptionist to block him. Again the Receptionist called and said the man insisted. I said call the Police or the Bomba or even Search & Rescue.

Funny I went out to see who this unexpected visitor is. He was the man with the Ray Ban. So Mr Ray Ban apologised a thousand times for approaching me that way. I told him I could report him to the security for stalking me and his answer, he didnt care as he could wait the whole day for me to get off work and still could follow me. I didnt know whether to laugh or cry as I wasnt in a mood for a joke. Mr Ray Ban, ok RB for short, introduced himself as being a businessman with interest in journals and research. On the mention of research, that interest me as I was actually doing some research at work when he came in.

After about an hour talking to him about research work I found him interesting and asked for his name and contacts. He was of course very pleased that I asked and said I could even ask the sun or the moon. I said, yes please give me the sun and point it to X so he would melt. 'Sorry?' he asked; I said, 'Nevermind'.

I returned to my room and looked at RB's businesscard. He has given me some fresh methods on doing a research and advised 'Google' is not always the best place to do a research. I started to search for RB's journals, okay I googled. There were like over a hundred results and all the works were on research. Now RB is really talking. I sent the whole of Tuesday doing my research and by close of play I was already exhausted. I looked at my handphone. 'A' didnt text me today. Oh well, maybe he's busy or something I tried to calm myself down. I left office and went straight to The Mall to have the biggest and the best Teh C Special. How refreshing. I text my friend, Z, and asked if she would like to join in. She happened to be there, that shopaholic friend of mine. I thought it was only last Sunday that she said she was at The Mall.

I didnt only have Teh C Special but also a hot, sizzling plate. It was literally hot that I ordered two rounds of the beverage. The next thing I knew, 'A' was right infront of me. Oh he caught me with two mugs, how embarrasing.

'Thirsty are we,' he smiled. I was speechless. Z came to the rescue. Z said I could afford even four or five rounds, with my frame. We laughed. He asked if he could join in and I looked at Z who rolled her eyes but smiled anyway. 'A' took a seat right in front of me. I thought he was going to sit next to me. Oh well, I wanted more arm space anyway so I could enjoy my hot plate. I realised he wanted to look at me thats why he sat infront of me.

Z was smiling or even grinning from ear to ear when I remembered I havent introduced 'A' to her. After an exchange of pleasantries, Z mouthed: 'He's cute what!' I laughed. 'A' noticed and asked what was that. Z quickly replied, its just a girl thing.

I asked 'A' how come he was at The Mall. He said he was looking for his friend who was at the gym earlier but the friend has laready left. He thought he wanted to eat something and went to the Food Court and saw me. I smiled. Z looked a bit scpetical. Z said that she happened to be at The Mall and I text her if she's around to join my Teh C Special session. 'A' joked that he didnt get an invite for that and put a serious face saying he apologised for crashing in the Teh C Special Party. Oh he's so funny.

We ended our conversation long after my hot plate turned cold and the ice in my drink has turned to its liquid state. Z has long gone as she has more shopping to do so both 'A' and I stayed on for another hour or so. We parted and promised to arrange something for the weekend. Oh I look forward already. I cant wait for Saturday. Can I skip Wednesday and Thursday and Friday? Oh hold on, I need Friday to get myself ready for Saturday, I dont know maybe do something to my hair or dont do anything to my hair or buy some new clothes or not to buy new ones.

I am still smiling as I tpye this. 'A' is so refreshing and X, oh what more can I say for X? Good luck?